31-12-2016 (星期六）

耶稣，谢谢袮。

今年，上帝供应了我的需要。同时，也想到去年读过的经文。
诗篇104：27-28 这都仰望你按时给它食物。你给它们，它们便抬起来；你张手，它们饱得美食。
诗篇145：14-16 凡跌倒的，耶和华将他们扶持；凡被压下的，将他们扶起。万民都举目仰望你，你随时给他们食物，你张手，使有生气的都随缘饱足。

感谢主，今年，开始工作了。不是全职方式来工作，而是以承包的方式；谈妥了工作，就在家做。时间自由但需要纪律。好多时候会懒惰，拖长了完成的时间。但上帝还是供应了日常所需，没有所缺的。也经历了上面的经文，谢谢主。

偶尔会出去，但好多的时候，会想躲起来。
奇妙的主，通过主日的敬拜分享和弟兄姐妹的交通，服事了我。
以赛亚书40：29-31 疲乏的，他赐能力；软弱的，他加力量。 就是少年人也要疲乏困倦，强壮的也必全然跌倒； 但那等候耶和华的，必从新得力。他们必如鹰展翅上腾，他们奔跑却不困倦，行走却不疲乏。

拍了一系列的自拍照，主题是认识自己。通过这个，把许多的情绪和想法拍了出来。虽然拍摄技巧普通，但拍了出来后，也是一种释放和再次的认识自己。谢谢耶稣的引领和同在。

从去年开始到现在，都想出来，想好好的活着。
 

不看和不听周围的人和环境，就想尽情、尽力的活着。
也感到自己好软弱。谢谢耶稣，重新依靠袮，像婴孩那样。

明年，还是继续认识耶稣和自己。
同时，放下、接受、依靠、交托和专注。
耶和华以勒，耶和华必预备。

新年蒙恩。愿上帝与我们同在，阿门。

 

KNOW MYSELF (51/52 and 52/52)

 51/52     Do I wear mask again or take it off?

52/52     I desire to know Jesus more deeply.

Lastly, I would like to thank God for helping me grow this year.

And friends, thank you for looking at this project.

 

God bless you and Happy New Year 2017. 

 

 

KNOW MYSELF (49/52 and 50/52)

 49/52     Think too much.

50/52     All I need is some light in the dark.

KNOW MYSELF (47/52 and 48/52)

 47/52     Don't see myself as beautiful.

48/52     I'm lost.

KNOW MYSELF (45/52 and 46/52)

 45/52    I'm crying.

God, please cure and accompany me.

I'm not alone, You are always with me.

46/52     Wish to jump over the ditch.

KNOW MYSELF (42/52, 43/52 and 44/52)

 42/52     Lay down and enjoy the weather and nature.

So beautiful and colourful the autumn. 

 43/52     Why am I so sensitive and care about how others perceive me?

Because I don't know myself. 

God, please lead me to know you and myself.

44/52     Quiet the mind and get to sleep.




Extra photos in 42th week as the following.
Thanks God, a beautiful autumn holiday in Seoul and Jeju.
   

KNOW MYSELF (39/52, 40/52 and 41/52)

 39/52     Hide and seek.

 40/52   Relax and enjoy this beautiful day.

41/52     It is the time to fly away from here.

 

KNOW MYSELF (36/52, 37/52 and 38/52)

 36/52     Reading time.

 37/52     Am I ready for adventure?

38/52     Time flies.

Psalm 90:12 So teach us to number our days that 

we may get a heart of wisdom.

 

KNOW MYSELF (33/52, 34/52 and 35/52)

 33/52     I'm bored of my life.

 34/52     I hope family support me and my decision.

35/52     To celebrate 59th National Day.

Thanks God bless us.

KNOW MYSELF (30/52, 31/52 and 32/52)

 30/52     I'm insecure and always wear thick clothes to cover myself.

 31/52     Accidental fall down a hole.

Feel painful.

32/52     I want to scream but can't.

Feel exhausted.

KNOW MYSELF (28/52 and 29/52)

 28/52     I want to fly away from here.

29/52     Live for Jesus.

 

20160717 (Sun)

下午  雨天

全能上帝，奇妙的主，永在的父，和平君王。
从去年开始，想更多认识耶稣。

祂是奇妙，通过许多人向我说话。

昨天是星期六，早上时，与一位姐妹通电话。
我们虽遇到不一样的事，但我们同样的知道上帝要我们放下所执着的那样事或思想。
祂是奇妙。

放下，尤其是所执着的那个心思意念
好像很难，但应该也容易吧！

唯有祂知道我是否放下了吗。

祂是奇妙。
昨晚的聚合，再次提醒我专注于祂。
不要八卦，不要比较，只要定睛于祂。
比较，会分心，埋怨和不开心。
别人的事和看法不关我的事，
但上帝的事关我的事吗？

唯有祂知道我是否关心祂的事。

祂是奇妙。
一直提醒孩子放下，接受，依靠祂，专心，交托。

耶稣，谢谢袮。

KNOW MYSELF (26/52 and 27/52)

 26/52      I feel like garbage.

27/52     Thanks God for blessing me with your love and patience.

Psalms 139:13-17

For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother's womb.

I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well.

My frame was not hidden from you, when I was being made in secret, intricately woven in the depths of the earth.

Your eyes saw my unformed substance; in your book were written, every one of them, the days that were formed for me, when as yet there were none of them.

How precious to me are your thoughts, O God! How vast is the sum of them!

 

12-7-2016 (Tuesday)

晚 晴

心感觉很糟糕，很乱！

把自己深藏起来。

漠视情绪，冷眼对待周围！

累！想哭！

别人的眼光怎么重要吗？

为何不善待自己？

昨天，看到两只季候鸟飞过海。

好美！

希望自己像它们展翅过海，逆风而飞。

海浪和海风，都享受在其中。

好想飞，上帝。

上帝是奇妙。

让我面对祂和自己。

诗篇42:5 

我的心哪！你为何忧闷？为何在我里面烦躁？应当仰望　神，因他笑脸帮助我，我还要称赞他。

KNOW MYSELF (24/52 and 25/52)

 24/52     I have realised that I do not accept myself.

God, I need you.

25/52     Sometimes I feel so happy; Sometimes I feel so sad.

These are emotion only.

What's the meaning of life?

God, please guide and teach me.

KNOW MYSELF (21/52, 22/52 and 23/52)

 21/52     Turnaround, turnaround

 22/52     My dream

23/52     Feel sad and cried loudly.

First time to say "I love you" and pay the price.

22-05-2016 (Sun)

礼拜天  下午  晴天

前几天，再次的躲起来了。
这次，心还是沉重。对童年的时光，记忆不清楚。

其实，内心对父母，很需要。
想得到他们的认同，
想得到他们的爱 。

童年的时光，曾想要他的抱抱；
曾想要他陪着我，在游乐场玩；
曾想要他们让我尝试许多新鲜的事，例如玩沙、爬到高处、玩水、骑脚踏车、大手牵小手等。

好多时候，她会拒绝我玩得疯。
小时的我，文静不讲话，扮演大姐的身份。
长大了，内心有时会想疯一下。

耶稣，求你医治我、满足对父母的期望，阿门。

KNOW MYSELF (18/52, 19/52 and 20/52)

 18/52     How could this happen to me?

 19/52     Painful periods.

20/52     Sleeping hours.

KNOW MYSELF (16/52 and 17/52)

16/52     Sleepless night. Don't know why can't sleep well in three years.

God, please cure me.

17/52     For I am poor and needy, and my heart is stricken within me.

KNOW MYSELF (14/52 and 15/52)

14/52     Why can't I move on? Why am I so sad? Why?

15/52     My heart is sick and withered like the dried leaves.

 

KNOW MYSELF (11/52, 12/52 and 13/52)

11/52     After broke up with him, like to cry in the shower.

 12/52     Thanks God, I am returning to work after a long break of 10 months.

Feel excited and tired.

13/52     When I'm feeling down, want to go out but scared.

KNOW MYSELF (9/52 and 10/52)

9/52     When hand or body is getting dirty, just clean it.

But, how should I do when heart is getting dirty?

I feel myself is a hypocrite.

10/52     I often build an invisible wall around me.
It is because the feelings of distrust, insecurity and fear.

KNOW MYSELF (6/52, 7/52 and 8/52)

 6/52     Happy Chinese New Year.
In this cny, I was stayed at home the whole time and read novel.

 7/52     I'm a normal adult but feel like a handicapped child when communicate with others.

8/52     I feel helpless and don't know what to do.